1 year ago, for day 40 by 
Fred Rivett ⚡
Now that's a scary question.
Fear is one of our strongest signals. It reaches us at surface level, causing the ripples and waves in the lake of our hearts.
It's trying to tell us something, but what? It never directly lets us know. For the surface fear is only the...
1 year ago, for day 39 by Fred Rivett ⚡
I feel sad, and that's ok. It's true. It's how I feel right now.
Not deeply sad. Not desperately hopeless. Just a little sad. A little mourning.
Sad for a few reasons. A little uncertainty in the future. Dreary weather. Missing someone I love. Missing deeper connections.
I've a handful...
1 year ago, for day 242 by Fred Rivett ⚡
A diversity of focus is a contradiction of terms.
No-one can focus on multiple things at once.
To do so is to focus on nothing at all, to be pulled this way and that, like spaghetti, intertwined, messy, unstructured, meaningless.
A lack of focus disturbs our soul. A lack of...
1 year ago, for day 131 by Fred Rivett ⚡
I’m letting this habit slip. 11pm on a Saturday night, out with friends but popping to the loo to throw three hundo down.
Sorry, TMI.
I’m not sure how long I’ll carry this on for. Not sure what I really want to get out of this.
It started on New...
1 year ago, for day 130 by Fred Rivett ⚡
It swirls up and around. It rises with the promise of subsiding again sometime, but whentime, who knows.
I’m overwhelmed by emotions. Emotions plural. There’s a lot going on inside of me right now.
What does it all mean? What does my future look like? What actions should I be...
1 year ago, for day 128 by Fred Rivett ⚡
My parents came up to visit tonight. It was so nice hanging out with them and showing them one of my favourite restaurants in London. We spoke about all sorts, and spent a good few hours just chatting.
They’re getting older, as am I. They’re still relatively young, around the...
1 year ago, for day 127 by Fred Rivett ⚡
Eesh I keep leaving this late.
After a tiring day a mate of mine invited a couple of us round and despite my natural inclination to chill and watch the football I decided to be sociable.
It’s been a great night of real talk with good people. But I missed...
1 year ago, for day 126 by Fred Rivett ⚡
I've slept a lot the past two days. A surprising amount, even for me.
I sleep quite a bit already. At least 8 hours a night, and at weekends, often more like 10. I'm fortunate that getting to sleep isn't a problem, but challenged in that getting up often is...
1 year ago, for day 125 by Fred Rivett ⚡
There are two ways to live, and increments in between. Boldly, fearlessly, lovingly, openly. Cowardly, fearfully, coldly, lonely.
There are two ways to live, but they aren’t binary. Not in the macro sense, at least. Not in the big picture. Not in the scale of our lives.
That’s a natural...
1 year ago, for day 124 by Fred Rivett ⚡
Yet again it’s gone 11 I’m on a train home with friends and I need to write 300 words.
It feels pretty rude to do this.
But now it’s 11:50 as I decided not to be rude and time is running low.
Today’s been a good day. It was the...