Hey there friends, I'm back.
One of previous posts was about not knowing what to do next and how to move forward with life so I did what adults do: Took a week off in the mountains with my snowboard and slow internet connections. There's something about isolating yourself from everything, it kinda puts things into perspective and you can see things more clearly.
I'm back so what now? I still don't know exactly what I'm going to do moving forward but I came to terms with what I have and I think I'm in a better position to make any decisions. I've been thinking about capitalism, the role I play in our society, how tech is harmful in a bunch of ways and I kinda don't want to be part of this whole shit show.
What have I discovered? I like freedom way more than a nice paycheck. This might seem quite straightforward for a lot of people but my sole goal for the past few years have been to get a better title, get more money, climb the corporate ladder so I could reach those very fat 6 figures salaries that "everyone" in tech has but this comes with a cost that I'm not sure I'm willing to pay for anymore. I come from a family that struggled a lot with money for the majority of my life and that might have scared me and I unconsciously make that a priority.
So, yeah, I'm still lost but at least I know what I don't want. I don't want to keep climbing that ladder, I don't need more money. I just need more free time; time to climb to snowboard to see my parents to read, to write love stories, to write new songs.
I want to be happy from 9 to 5 and not just waiting for it to be over.