Damn- building a new habit when your motivation came from a tweet is more difficult than I thought. Who would have guessed?
After writing a liberating 300 words on January 2nd, I'm back at it 5 days later, hoping to provide some more substance.
One of my biggest fears in life is health. It's something that I've always been so anxious about after falling ill when my family were abroad. I was only 16, and at the time was elated to be getting freedom. A house to myself! I wasn't even going to party- I just wanted to feel like a grown up, cook my own meals, do my own washing. As a sixth year in high school, I was ready to take the next step, and before higher education this felt like the next best thing.
Even now I still get anxious over any sort of symptom. I'm sure I'm not the first person to google headache and be told I've probably got brain cancer by WebMD, and I certainly won't be the last. But for a long time this was my biggest downfall, being encompassed by a "what if" worst case mentality.
Nowadays my big concern is my memory. From running my own business, side hustle, taking care of my own social and personal life, I run my life through my calendar, and sometimes I feel guilty or that there's "something wrong" because I can't remember what happened 4 days ago off the top of my head. I don't know if I ever was able to do that, but the fact I can't, concerns me. Show me my calendar and I know everything that happened, when where and why. But damn do I wish I could remember things a little easier.
So to conclude, I'm sitting in my office, with a Mensa Calendar Challenger, which my girlfriend got me- half jokingly. It comes with a "Daily Brain Workout." Todays challenge is to rearrange the phrase "THE NOBLE GOSSIP GATE" into a popular Italian dish.
If you work it out, pop it in the comments! It took me far too long (hint: it's not pizza! They put a picture of a pizza on the page so it totally threw me. Lol.)