I'm at a point where I need to figure out what I want to do. I sent out an application during the weekend for a position I was introduced to during a virtual graduate fair. Today I got an email about a Skype discussion with the recruiter I chatted with during the fair.
I don't know if it's something I actually want to do. I mean it sounded interesting, otherwise I wouldn't have applied, but is it what I want the most?
I had a talk with the Senior UX'er I'm being supervised by during lunch. She really wants me to continue in the company after my internship ends. I don't know if that's what I really want. The past week has been a great experience, but is that what I want to do for years? I don't think so.
She also mentioned that if I want to continue in academia (the only thing me resume seems to be suited for) I should do that now, maybe with a freelance project in the industry once in a while. That seems like good advice. She said that whatever I chose now (academia or industry) will create a path for my future.
For some reason, I lean more towards academia. It's something I have always admired, but I also know how soul-crushing that can be and that it requires a robust self-esteem if you want to survive. I also kind of hated doing my Master's thesis. But at the same time I had a really great time.
If I don't plan to make my own family it makes sense to go into academia. With the traveling and the work. I can see myself writing awesome papers and doing conference talks. Maybe write a chapter for a book someday.
On the other hand, I had my first "assignment" "presentation" today. It went well. The Senior said she was impressed by my findings. Some of it was new to her, some were things she had wanted to look into but hadn't had the time. That was a really nice experience!
We'll see what happens. I have this feeling that everything will work out as it's supposed to.