I'm in Aarhus again with my friend Anders. Today my sister jokingly asked when we will get married. It won't ever happen, but right now we are two single people who don't mind a bit of company and dinner conversations.
I think I'm in a mood today. I didn't get my multi-vitamin and evening vitamin D tablet, but that shouldn't have this big of an impact.
It's the whole unemployment thing that's bringing me down. Within the last few days, I've seen a bunch of "job" postings looking for Master student interns who want to do an internship along with their university courses. I feel like I'm super late or applying the wrong techniques for getting a job. I'm afraid there will be a batch of new and more attractive graduates before I manage to secure a job. Also, the upcoming financial crisis scares the shit out of me.
I feel like I'm running under water. I'm tired and frustrated and I have nothing to show for all my efforts.
I keep telling myself (and everyone else) it will happen eventually. It has to and why wouldn't it? Yet I doubt myself and all the choices that have led me here.
I'm going to make a cup of tea and disappear into a book. Ted Simon has just about made it to South Africa on his motorcycle travels and I think being worried about someone else's problems and situation right now will help me not sulk about my own.
It doesn't help it's been freezing outside and that it's dark for so many hours of the day, I hate winter in every way and I dislike Christmas, so I don't even have that to look forward to. Well, at least it's matching day for Reddit's Secret Santa exchange tomorrow so I'll have a task for my subconscious to chew on the next 2-3 weeks.