I did the "paperwork" today and I'm now officially unemployed. I hope this run will be a lot shorter than last time because I don't know if I can handle being without a job for another 12 months. It helps that I have my own place this time but the pressure on my self-esteem gets harder to handle with every week that passes. I want to use my education and I want to feel useful!
Something totally unrelated: I don't know if I should keep writing here. I love the writing habit but I just keep noticing stuff here on this page that's broken or still hasn't been fixed. A lot of the community members have left the group, both here and in the chatty chat. I feel like I'm trying to create a busy lively atmosphere and all I hear are echoes in an empty hallway.
At some point, I wanted to be number one. With Yorick having his timezone set for Hawaii I'm usually at the top of the list of writers here. It doesn't feel so great to "win" when you do so because there's no one to "compete" against.
I don't know if I can just stop writing after so long? It'll probably be a lot easier than I think...
Warm rain, icy snow
When it's been raining for a couple of days, it feels like it's never going to stop. Unless you have to go outside, things are postponed for some other time. Being inside during rainy days isn't necessarily bad unless you had other plans.
Sometimes the rain becomes endless, like the night during the winter months. Sunshine just a distant memory.
On those rainy days, it's best to change plans completely and make the best of it. Did you have plans of doing some gardening? Nurture another kind of garden; read a book, sort your drawers or check in with a friend.
But what are you supposed to do when you're far from home in a small tent and the rain doesn't create a cute excuse for a cozy day inside? When the rain is a snowstorm because the temperatures are so far below freezing you're no longer fascinated by the high negative number on the thermometer but scared because you know it can kill you. In a situation like that, you'd wish for endless rain instead with tea and cozy blankets.
Then again, if you're the type to seek out snowstorms like that, a bit of rain probably wouldn't have stopped you in the first place.