I think the thing that annoys me the most about not having a job isn't the lack of the job and everything that brings. It's everything around it. It's all the questions from people who care about me: "Are there any good jobs to apply for?" "Have you considered a job outside your field?" "How much time do you have left on dagpenge?". It's the endless hours I spend searching for and applying to jobs. It's interviews and tests that are wasted time because they don't end up with a job offer. It's all the 'wise people' who have a ton of advice about the kind of job and company a graduate should look for, when I feel like I can't just pick and chose as I please; if I get just one job offer, I should take that because there are no alternatives despite how much I'd like to work in a true meritocratic organization with a culture of evenly split parental leave.
I hate how I need to pretend to be something I'm not to even be considered for a job. I'm not passionate about anything. I'm curious about a ton of things though and if I find something interesting I tend to get sucked in and spend hours without breaks.
I hate how half the time I can say (and truly believe) that a job does not define you as a person and the rest I feel inadequate and worthless. It's annoying that I have to keep going no matter what.
Let me dig your grave
For one whole month every second year, every single one of us above the age of 20 has to help with the dead and dying. The robots have taken over almost all other jobs and medical advancements mean life is very different from just 50 years ago. One thing is still certain; we're all going to die at some point.
We all do our part in this process. Some are present with the dying person, making sure they are not alone. Others help the family or friends with the process of preparing the body for cremation/burial. This time my job is to dig graves and prepare the compost mixture.
I know a lot of people dislike this part of post-capitalism but if I'm being totally honest, I'm a big fan. The thin line between alive and dead is sometimes very well-defined and sometimes not. Like pretty much everything else human, death can be messy but incredibly beautiful as well. I think it's good for all of us to be confronted with death. It's good for us as a society and it's good for us as individuals. No matter what, we're all going to die. I get why most people don't want to think about death. That shit is scary! Today we're here, tomorrow we might not be.
The concept of birth has changed a lot with the introductions of the surrogates but death is still the same. Death absolutely terrifies me which is also why I feel like I live with more intent (almost) every day compared to 20 years ago. I too will be dead one day and that's okay. My body will be taken care of. I am reminded of this at least one month every other year.