I don't want to, but there's no way around it. I'm so endlessly sick of my thesis and I just want the defense tomorrow to be over. A lot of my classmates have already passed, I'm one of four left (of those who will be taking the exam this week in June, the rest will be scattered over the second half of 2019).
I'm so close!! In about 12 hours my defense will begin. Urgh!
I don't feel ready.
I don't know if I would ever feel ready.
I really just want it to be over with so I can move on with my life. Seriously.
This project has been fun, but it sure has been tough as hell as well. I've doubted myself all the way through it and it seems like February is forever ago. Like this is what I've always been doing and always will be doing. It won't though because tomorrow is defense day!!
I'm almost done with my presentation. I need to rehearse it at least once before bed. I optimistically set my bedtime for 23, but that doesn't really seem possible right now. Maybe midnight? I really hope so!
I need to get up around 8 so I can shower, eat breakfast, put on makeup, do my hair and pick out an outfit before heading for the university to set up.
I'm beginning to get nervous. I don't want to be. I seriously don't care anymore. As long as I can pass (which I'm pretty sure I will).
I felt like the written part was the hardest. Staring at the defense I would still claim so. That was terrible! This is almost as bad, but not quite. It's 50 minutes I just have to live through and then I'll be fucking done.
1 Master's degree in IT Product Design.
I can't wait!