It's fun to do the countdown and it's nice I don't have to come up with a title but I also kind of miss it? But only 6 posts left to write. I don't think they will be my best but probably not the worst either. And I'm looking forward to being done with writing every day. I think my sister does too. I will miss it eventually and I think it's going to take a while to get past the feeling that there's something I need to do before midnight. I'll probably be over it faster than I think though.
There has been an incident around Christmas, Covid-19, and my grandmother. I'm not going to go into the details because I'm really angry about what has happened and it's only going to hurt me. It's pure carelessness and thinking that Covid only happens to other people. I'm so fucking tired of this shit.
Something good is that I have a date for the first time in forever on Tuesday. He just got his booster shot and agreed (with no issues) to take an antigen test before meeting up. We've been messaging for the past few days and he seems really funny and very nice. At this point, meeting up can only disappoint but I'm ready for it. I don't care.
It was only 6 days from she received the last order till she began adding onto the next. 8 books lay at the dresser unread and would do so for months. That year she only read 4 books in total but she bought 32. Of the 4 books she read, only 2 were from the order of 32 books. But to her, it wasn't the reading that mattered. It was finding new gems on Goodreads and making sure she got a good deal on them. Well, even 15% was enough to press 'Add to cart' most of the time. It was the imagining of absorbing the knowledge and the stories from the books that keeps her hooked. The actual reading felt rather tedious.
There was an unmatched excitement to receiving the new books. To open them up for the first time and smell the paper and ink. Having a nice hardback book or a colorful paperback made books feel like the most valuable thing ever and she had just added them to her collection. Every book had endless potential; it could be her new favorite or the one that changed her life completely. None of them were and none of them did.
After a move, she decided to not buy more physical books. She got an eReader and filled it with title after title till she discovered that a digital download doesn't feel as great as a physical book.