I haven't been feeling well at all today. I woke up with a massive headache and feeling like I had a low fever. I took my temp which was normal and got some water and a smoothie for breakfast. Then I went back to bed for a few hours. I feel sick but it's more of a surface thing, it seems. I should feel a lot better tomorrow.
Still no news from my date on Tuesday. I sent him a message to let me know if he didn't want to talk anymore. Still nothing. I've deleted the app again because I got tired of checking for those three dots. I'm not interested in going on any other dates at the moment. I'm tired of nervousness, expectations, and disappointment.
It can happen if it's going to happen. I won't be looking for it, at least for a while.
Tomorrow is the 31st of December and the last day in 2021 (at least according to my calendar). Personally, this year has been especially shitty. I don't think things will magically be better on the 1st of January 2022 but I guess I'm still allowed to hope that it will be. At least I hope I'll get the strength to make things better.
2 acorns fell from the tree in late fall. They had shared a branch and it would have been natural for them to land next to each other and use one another for support during sprouting in Spring and the early time of their life as trees. But it wasn't so. One of them fell straight down and landed at the food of the mother tree. The other hit a rock and was thrown into the nearby spring which carried it far away from its origin.
Eventually, it was picked up by a curious squirrel and buried on the edge of a clearing then left there all forgotten.
The two seeds were created together and were supposed to be together. But fate would have that they were separated. One of the two sprouted as best as it could but never grew, missing the other one's support and quickly withered away leaving no trace of its existence. The second of the two, made the best of it and thrived under the lack of competition. It grew larger and stronger every year, influencing its surroundings. It made an impact and lived on to be many hundreds of years and seeding lots of other oak trees.