2 years ago for day 64, 2019 with 344 words.

I guess

Getting better at taking one step at a time. That's what I'm trying to do, at least.

I'm a strange character. In some ways I'm able to ignore things that most folks would spend quite a bit of mental energy on. But in other ways, I can think deeply about stuff most people don't ever think about.

I don't really understand that about myself, but I've seen it enough times to know it's a pattern.

So in one way, I'm able to move forwards without overthinking consequences. And in other ways, I've plotted every eventual path ahead and now taking a step seems like a big deal.

I've just finished reading Fathered By God, which talks about the stages of maturity, growing up as a man. There's a quote in there that jumped out at me as if it was written for me, today:

"Thankfully, climbing, like life, comes to us one piece at a time. You cannot take the whole mountain at once [...] You make the next move, committed that your only plan is to do it."

I feel that. It's so true. Life can only be taken one step at a time.

We've all heard the saying, "a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step". But in times when things have been overthought and looked at from many angles, it can become difficult to not pre-occupy myself by thinking steps ahead, when all I can affect is the step in front of me now.

Focus is hard, I find. Meditation is a good example. Just trying to sit for 30 seconds and focus on the sky, I find that hard enough.

I guess it shows that there's some inner restlessness going on. Some things unresolved that nag at me.

I guess that's part of life. Unanswered questions. The unforeseen future. Uncertain steps.

Being self-aware of the situation is the first step in changing it, I guess.

I'm guessing a lot here. But I guess we all are.

dreamer

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