2 months ago for day 111, with 362 words.

The Myth of Laziness

In today's world, it seems simple to rationalize virtually anything, even the worst part of ourselves. When everything happens for a reason, what are we to make of the negative aspects of ourselves and our lives? Given a choice between arrogance and self-deprecation, it's seen as more acceptable to be critical of ourselves. Somewhat paradoxically, there's a tinge of pride to humility, when we know that it will be embraced and rewarded. Truthfully, it's all a matter of perspective. The braggadocios have their fans too. Life is short; why cower behind modesty?

I've been thinking a lot about this seeming cultural reluctance to label people as lazy. It's true, shaming people rarely produces the desired result, especially in a culture that reveres the shameless. Still, I've seen laziness swatted away in favor of depression, anxiety, decision paralysis, and procrastination. We tell ourselves that we grow inert as a response to a world that moves too fast and demands that react at a moment's notice to things that ultimately don't matter. I can tell you with a straight face that I procrastinate because I am paralyzed by all of the decisions I have to make, which induce anxiety, and ultimately, depression, when I fall short of my goals. That I'm not lazy. And I will believe it it.

Yet it offers me no peace from the truth. I am not meeting the goals I've set for myself. There's a part of me that rankles at the thought that I'm, perhaps, being too easy on myself. When is laziness real and not a symptom of something else? Why do I have a hierarchy of procrastinations, things I've avoided but will do instead of the worst thing on my list? I know that having a talk with myself on the page or in the mirror won't change my behavior, but slowly but surely, action will. I know habits are formed step by step, one repetition at a time. As much as I resist routine, it's marvelous to be able to do the things I dislike most without even thinking. I would like to get there with time and daily effort. I know it.

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By Asia

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