Hello there. It's been a while. What a time to be alive, right? I hope you are all in good health, and equally importantly, in good spirits.
I saw the notifications. I wanted to say thank you to those that reached out and pinged me when I disappeared. I felt the love, but I kind of wasn't feeling coming back. I felt I had sufficiently met my challenge, and frankly I grew frustrated with a lack of control around granting myself some grace when I did fail.
Now I'm back because I'm craving that peace of mind that comes with setting time aside to write. I'm craving that wee little bit of discipline I practiced everyday. I think it will help me maintain the discipline I want to implement in other areas of my life. A snowball effect kind of thing.
It's funny how much the writing still feels like riding a bike, but getting to 300 words feels difficult again. So here I am, journaling. It's the easy way out, and I think it's something we all kind of need right now.
What have I been up to? Well, I've been working remotely pretty much since the first week of March. At first it was strongly encouraged, then strongly recommended, and then, required. I'm happy my company took that step much earlier than the city demanded it. I regret that I did not bring some of my favorite tools from the office. I grew really attached to my Ember mug, and now I miss it.
Remote is the dream, but not like this. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't feeling a little stir crazy. I haven't been outside much except for the occasional grocery run. Just about 3 weeks ago I fell ill with a fever. It was mild, but I hadn't seen a fever since college, so it was a bit of a surprise. It's amazing how easily you can convince yourself that nothing is wrong with you, especially when you don't really remember what sick feels like. I just assumed I was fatigued.
But in hindsight, I wasn't being rational. My mind was in a haze. I wasn't thinking clearly. I could barely remember what I'd done moments before. I even locked myself out of my home and in failing to think it through, spent more money than necessary. I'm glad I had the foresight to buy a thermometer. I'm fortunate that I could deal with the spike in expenses.
Anyway, I'm back. On this, the 92nd day of the year, let's see how long I can keep this up.